Lord. As I sit here at my desk and look at the bookshelves filled with all the books You have given me, remember all the the education You have taken me through, and imagine the faces of all the mentors I have been introduced to… I realize that all of these resources have very little to do with what You have called me to. I am overwhelmed at Your investment in these resources, yet I felt Your sweet reminder to me today that “if I have not love,” well… everything else goes out the window anyway.
The only power I can rely on is Your unfailing love. I am amazed at how You accept me and forgive me. Even more so, I am astonished how You keep no record of wrongs. Then I think, if there is to be full love expressed, there can not be anything held back. How could You fully love me if you kept a record of things I did against You. You had to get rid of my sin and so you sent Your son Jesus to shed His blood to cover me. Now I am hidden in your love expressed! Wow!!
You hold the bar high. You are the perfect partner in a relationship and I wish that I gave you more of what you deserve… full, honest, and desired devotion. However, until that day you revive my flesh anew, I suffer with this disease of selfishness and try to demand Lordship over myself, family and world around me. When I am Lord, I reign unjustly, uncompassionately, intolerant, and arrogantly.
My hope is in You though. I know because You live with me, that You are greater than the moments I am in the worldly frame. You are the knight in shining armor and Your love leads me straight to the streams of life again. God I need You… to love. I need you… to feel. I need you… to rule over my heart, soul and mind. Oh God I ask again, daily in need… Let Your Love rule over me!
Shawn Starbuck 